Thursday 5 April 2012

Carpe Diem

Sieze the day.  It is always easier to say than to achieve.  But saying it is a good start.

In a way each of the sayings in my sidebar under the title 'Life' relate to that concept.  It's a concept that when you have a life-threatening illness you either embrace or you don't.  There's not really room for a half-way house approach.

Perhaps Lisa (Shabby Girl) said it most prosaically with "Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… It’s about learning to dance in the rain."

Today I've been feeling bogged down and if I hadn't already posted the previous post I'd have been too ashamed to do it after reading today's post by Jaz.  It's worth a read at Turning a Corner.  Here's part of it:
In the past I have catastrophized and turned my fears into big ugly mountains in front of me. But I've been thinking about that. Fears aren't real. Sure they can be based on some startling true facts eg I HAVE A BRAIN TUMOUR, but essentially our fears are our imaginations going for a walk.

So I've stopped walking my fears so often and taking myself out for fresh air instead. Lately I seem to be able to enjoy today and not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will come and then it will be today. I've got no control over it, just how I perceive and receive it.

I'm strangely calm about my MRI I just had. I'm still awaiting results and I refuse to waste precious time on irrational fears. If they tell me I'm dying, then I'll scream and cry, but not today, not NOW.
 Go Jaz.  May your NOW last for a very long time.

5 comments:

  1. Good luck, GB. We'll be praying for a happy outcome for all your tests. Take care and God bless. Hope you have a nice Easter, in spite of the worries. Sending love and hugs, Carol

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  2. Thank you, thank you, thank you dear friend. My imagination has been working overtime of late - you will know why - and in the wee small hours I have only had negative thoughts. I am now going to try and take a leaf out of your book.

    A big virtual hug to you.

    Love Spesh xx

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  3. Oops. Another case of me not making myself clear. Sorry. Actually after all the MRI scans I've had in the past and come through I do tend to live for the day but I'd grown a bit complacent recently and had been just a tiny bit fed up this week. It was when I read Jaz's post (and the inset bit above is a quote from her post) that I suddenly pulled myself together.

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  4. James Taylor has a song that begins: 'The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time....' Beautiful song. My song, my hero.

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  5. Lovely reminder! Its easy when things according to our wishes though!

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